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30 Desember 2011

Today is (not) The Last

Today is the last day in 2011. There's so many things happened in 2011. I still remember in the middle January he has put me in these unpredictable moments. Thanks so much. Do you still remember when we spent our weekend in Batu then rain was coming? It was one of our sweetest moment, wasn't it? You're right. I am not a kid anymore. I'm not a seven-year-old child again. But in your side I'm likely a seven-year-old who always whines asking to buy lollipop or something like that. I meet a lot of new college friends in 2011. I am really content meet awesome friends like them, my new family ieits2011 :) Because of you I know how to share with others, I know how to understand each other. Thanks for the special experiences. And big thanks to Him and my family, ayah ibu'. Thanks for Your precious love Allah, You love me more than anyone else in this world, thanks for this every breath, for make me alive until now. Ayah Ibu' who always support me. You're the most deserving in my life. I love you with a thousand heart :*
Today is the last day in 2011 but not the last of my love life with my families, you, and my friends.

26 Desember 2011

SMS

SMS dari Nabila:
Selamat hari Ibu, ibu'ku sayang..
Terimakasih ibu'..
Ibu yang selalu memelukku erat dan penuh kasih sayang.
Ibu yang berjuang mati-matian untuk melahirkan dan membesarkan aku dan adek.
Ibu yang berusaha menghemat sekuat tenaga, rela tidak membeli baju dan HP baru demi kuliahku dan sekolah adek.
Ibu yang 24 jam setia di samping ayah saat ayah sakit.
Ibu yang rela pontang-panting demi operasi ayah.
Maaf ibu',aku belum bisa menjadi putri yang baik,yang bisa membanggakan ibu' dan ayah.
Cuma bisa ngrepotin ibu' terus.
Selamat hari ibu..
Peluk dan cium dari Nabila di Surabaya

SMS balasan dari Ibu':
Subhanallah...alhamdulillah.
Semoga menjadi anak yang sholihah dunia akhirat, itulah yang membahagiakan ayah ibu.
Mbak dan adek patuh sama ayah ibu. Ibadahnya bagus, jalannya lurus di jalan Allah.
Ayah dan ibu sangat bahagia.
Semoga Allah mengabulkan do'a kita sayang..
Alhamdulillah ayah ibu sehat, mbak adek sehat, ibu dan ayah bisa mendampingin memelukmu untuk melangkah menuju masa depan dengan penuh semangat untuk menjadi wanita sholihah yang mandiri, percaya diri membawa kemanfaatan dunia akhirat. Aamiin.
Semoga Allah selalu meridhoimu .
Terimakasih sayangku, kasih ibu sepanjang waktu, sepanjang masa untuk anak-anaknya terkasih. Sun sayang peluk erat untuk melangkah menuju kesuksesan sayang.

SMS ini aku kirimkan kepada ibu saat hari ibu kemaren, tepat sehari setelah ibu bertambah usianya :)
Sempat nangis juga pas baca SMS dari ibu'. Merasa banyak salah ke ibu'. Banyak mengecewakan ibu'. Banyak dosa..
Maaf ibu', Nabila belum bisa memberikan yang terbaik..

Ibu :)




Gambar 1. Lebaran taun 2008. pas daku masih langsing aww awww :3
Gambar 2. Wisuda MAN 3 Malang Juni 2011.badan udah melar ._.
Gambar 3. Umur 1 tahun 10 bulan.pas adek baru lahir.di foto itu aku dipangku sama tante (baju oranye)

Then I Let You Go

It sounds childish when I said, "Don't go! I wont' let you go". But please stay here for a moment.
Let me whisper you 'I love you now and then. I love how the way you treat me. I love your soap fragrant. I love how the way you look at me. I love you'.
See.. I don't care who you are, where you're from. I just love you. Then is it wrong if I said I won't let you go?
But now I know we have our dreams that we've to through, we've to reach. When you leave me someday, I promise to myself I'll keep this heart. I'll be standing here still. I'll be waiting for you here inside my heart.
Thanks for letting me as the one who love you more. Just believe in me nothing's gonna change my love for you.One thing you can be sure of I'll never ask for more than your love. The world may change my whole life through but I'll be always love you. I'll make you see all the things that your heart needs to know.
Someday we'll be the one. I hope..
Go on with your dreams. Reach them..

6 Desember 2011

The Gift of A Friend

Sometimes you think you'll be fine by yourself
Cause a dream is a wish that you make all alone
It's easy to feel like you don't need help
But it's harder to walk on your own

You'll change inside
When you realize

The world comes to life
And everything's bright
From beginning to end
When you have a friend
By your side
That helps you to find
The beauty you are, when you open your heart
And believe in
The Gift of a Friend

The Gift of a Friend...

Someone who knows when you're lost,
And you're scared
There through the highs and the lows
Someone to count on, someone who cares
Beside you wherever you go

You'll change inside
When you realize

The world comes to life
And everything's bright
From beginning to end
When you have a friend
By your side
That helps you to find
The beauty you are, when you open your heart
And believe in
The Gift of a Friend...

And when your hope crashes down
Shattering to the ground
You, you feel all alone
When you don't know which way to go
And there's no signs leading you home
You're not alone

The world comes to life
And everything bright
From beginning to end
When you have a friend
By your side
That helps you to find
The beauty you are, when you open your heart!
And believe in
When you believe in!
When you believe in...
The Gift of a friend..

*The Gift of A Friend Original by Demi Lovato in the movie 'Tinkerbell'*

5 Desember 2011

dilemma

freshman year. and i'm gonna be here for the next four years in this town. dan di tahun pertama aku udah ngerasain jadi mahasiswa yang emang tugas lebih banyak daripada SMA, yang frekuensi kumpul angkatan seminggu bisa lebih dari 3 kali, yang rasanya opname di RS setelah sekian lama ga pernah opname, dan rasanya sakit yang terdengar aneh 'dyspepsia' .
aku dilema. aku bukan tipe orang jenius. bukan tipe orang yang bisa berfikir cerdas dan cepat. aku juga bukan tipe orang yang bisa beradaptasi dengan cepat. tapi aku memang nggak mau terlihat lemah walaupun di satu sisi aku sebenarnya sedang rapuh.
seperti saat ini. di satu sisi aku harus menjalani fase ini dengan baik. fase yang mereka namakan SISTEM. tapi di satu sisi tubuhku memang sedang tidak ada kompromi. sungguh, aku menikmati sistem. menikmati kebersamaan dan rasa kekeluargaan teman-teman satu angkatan. bahkan dalam keadaan sakit pun aku tetap ikut menjadi bagian dari salah satu kegiatan besar bagi mahasiswa baru FTI.
sekarang aku dilema. aku bingung mana prioritas utamaku. padahal sudah jelas bahwa sehat tentu saja yang paling utama. tapi saat ini tidak hanya sehat yang menjadi prioritas paling pertama. entahlah, mungkin hanya aku yang terlalu berlebihan. melebih-lebihkan sakitku yang padahal menurut mereka biasa saja. bukan termasuk kritis.

20 September 2011

Rindu ..

Ibu'....
Ayah....
Doa ini tak putus-putus Nabila panjatkan. Semoga Ibu' dan Ayah sehat.
Nabila di sini sedang menulis mimpi.
Nabila menulis mimpi untuk saat ini dan nanti.
Mimpi untuk memenuhi janji Nabila ke Ibu' dan Ayah.
Nabila rindu.
Nabila titipkan rindu ini dalam shalat dan sujud kepadaNya.
Semoga Dia selalu menjaga Ibu' dan Ayah.

Cry Out Loud

I hate crying though. Literally, I never cry until out loud like last night. I don't know. I just feel so underpressured with everything around. Yaaa.. Be tough girl! Cliche right? But I have to. I don't want to be a fucking loser, man.

I'll always remember
it was late afternoon
It lasted forever
But ended so soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one will find

All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

It was late in September

And I'd seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one will find

All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you

I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything
Alright

I'll always remember...

It was late afternoon......
in places no one will find

In places no one will find

All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I think i saw you cry

The moment i saw you cry
I wanted to know you

*Cry - Mandy Moore

Terserah

Terserah kalian berkata aku cengeng
Terserah apa kata kalian
Terserah..

Memang benar
Satu-satunya yang ingin kulakukan malam ini adalah menjerit
Menangis
Bukan karena aku lemah
Bukan karena aku tak sanggup
Bukan..

Tetapi karena aku sudah lelah berpura-pura kuat

19 September 2011

Totalitas Perjuangan

Kepada para mahasiswa yang merindukan kejayaan
Kepada rakyat yang kebingungan di persimpangan jalan
Kepada pewaris peradaban yang telah menggoreskan
Sebuah catatan kebanggaan di lembah sejarah manusia

Wahai kalian yang rindu kemenangan
Wahai kalian yang turun ke jalan
Demi mempersembahkan jiwa dan raga
Untuk negri tercinta


*lalu apa kabar pahlawan? apa kabar pejuang 98? sia-sia atau tidak perjuangan mereka ketika melihat keadaan negeri ini? Wallahu a'lam..

GERIGI, Coklat SilverQueen, dan Totalitas Perjuangan

GERIGI 2011. Generasi Integralistik 2011 adalah salah satu event besar di ITS. And it was really experiencing event for me. Di sana aku bisa mengenal teman-teman dari jurusan lain.

Hari pertama:
Nggak ikut opening ceremony secara full gara-gara masih ada kuliah PBT (Pengantar Bahan Teknik) sebelumnya. Jadi cuma dapet buntutnya opening ceremony.hehehee... Wait, ada pemilihan Ketua Teritori sama Ketua Suku. Pas mbak-mas IC tanya "siapa yang mengajukan diri jadi Kater (Ketua Teritori)?" Reflek aku angkat tangan. Trus kita semua disuruh mejemin mata. Dan pas dibuka.. TARAAA!!! Calon Katernya semua cowok :| hikss...hiks... Akhirnya pas ditanyain siapa yang mau jadi Ketua Suku aku males angkat tangan. Dan hasilnya, Katerku namanya Restu, ga tau dari jurusan apa. Trus Ketua Sukuku namanya Rizal dari Tekkim *sempet digojlokin sama aku* -____-"

Hari Kedua:
Pagi-pagi semua peserta GERIGI udah ngumpul di Stadion ITS buat aacra ECO CAMPUS Gugur Gunung 2011. Ada pembukaan dari Walikota Surabaya sama dari pak Rektor ITS. Trus satu suku sibagi menjadi 3 kelompok. Tiap kelompok dikasih tugas buat nanam satu pohon. Fyi, penanaman pohon ini dilombakan dengan nama 'Lomba Pohon Asuh'. Jadi dalam kurun waktu enam bulan kita diwajibkan untuk merawat pohon yang sudah kita tanam. Setelah itu masing-masig teritori berpencar ke tempat yang sudah ditentukan panitia untuk penerimaan materi. Teritoriku dapat tempat di UPMB. Materi yang pertama yaitu 'Peran dan Fungsi Mahasiswa' disampaikan oleh mas Median Medfo BEM-ITS. Mas Median njelasin kalo mahasiswa itu sebagai iron stock, agent of change, social control, dan moral force. Setelah materi dari mas Median kita sholat trus makan kemudian materi tentang 'Kekinian'. Di sini kita debat. Ada mahasiswa yang dikasi peran sebagai pahlawan, masyarakat san mahasiswa. Seru banget lah..udah lama ga debat nii . Terakhir debat pas ada lomba english debate competition di Unair tahun 2010 kemaren *ga nyambung* . Nah, sorenya sebelum pulang. Mas IC ngasi tugas buat Show off besoknya. Trus malemnya beberapa perwakilan suku se-teritori ngumpul di Stadion Futsal Pertamina buat ngomongin masalah show off. Aku juga ikutan dateng, kesananya pinjem motor Aida *maklum motornya masih dalam proses dikirim*

Hari ketiga:
Pagi-pagi kita semua apel di taman alumni, dilanjutin sama show off, trus ada teatrikal dari Tiyang Alit juga. Habis itu teritoriku ke UPMB buat materi. Materi pertama bahas tentang teatrikal tadi. Beberapa anak diminta buat ngejelasin. Trus materi selanjutnya yaitu tentang KM ITS. Pematerinya mas Erri, Kahima HMTL. Trus di tengah-tengah materi mas Erri tanya, siapa yang tahu arti NKK/ BKK. Refleks aku angkat tangan, aku jawab Normalisasi Kehidupan Kampus mas. tapi yang BKK aku lupa. hehehee. Habis itu ada sesi tanya jawab. Aku nanya tentang MUBES. Karena aku nggak paham-paham materi tentang ini. Nah, pas di akhir materi mas Erri bilang," Saya punya hadiah buat yang aktif. Mas IC bisa ngasih tahu siapa yang aktif selama materi tadi?" Trus ada mas IC bisikin sesuatu ke mas Erri. Dan tiba-tiba mas Erri tanya,"Yang namany Nabila Silmina angkat tangan?" Then, he gave me SILVERQUEEN chocolate. Anak-anak seteritori pada nyorakin. Hadeeh, lebay deh.
Materi selanjutnya yaitu tentang 'Prestasi ITS' oleh mas Puma. Ya, karena sebelumnya saya sudah bertemu, jadi sudah hafal karakter penyampaian materinya.hehehe...
Setelah materi-materi selesei, kita ngumpul di Taman Alumni. Trus ada acara Simulasi Total. Disini kita disuruh bikin peta Indonesia dari bentangan kain yang lebar. dan akhirnya jadilah peta Indonesia yang digambar dengan koin 500 rupiah. Keren kan? Habis itu kita closing ceremony. Mas Dalu ngasih orasinya yang berapi-api lagi, trus kita bareng-bareng nyanyiin lagu 'Totalitas Perjuangan'.
Dan ini akhir minggu yang benar-benar unforgettable pokoknya.

Thanks to:
1. Allah SWT, karena tanpaNya apalah arti saya sebagai manusia.
2. Mas-mbak BEM ITS atas GERIGInya.
3. Mas Weka as my IC :D
4. Mas Erri atas Silverqueen-nya :)
5. Temen-temen teritori 6

Thanks a bunch :)

GERIGI ITS: BERSAMA, BERSINERGI, JAYA ALMAMATERKU

Dua minggu berlalu..

Ternyata sudah dua minggu aku menjalani aktifitas sebagai mahasiswa baru. It's amazing find a new world like this. Even it's totally strenuous week. Sleeping too late and wake up too early. I'm really really freaking busy, cliche right? But it's true. Yeah, it's not that easy to adapt in new environment. I'm struggling here. Assignments, homework, and everything is killing me softly *lebay* and I've to be getting better with my time management, yes?

Minggu pertama: masih ngomongin silabus mata kuliah, a little introduction from lecturer. Tapi di kelas PIE (Pengantar Ilmu Ekonomi) udah langsung tugas. And you know what dosenku keren banget. Her name's bu Janti Gunawan. Yaa sedikit strength tapi she's damn cool. She works in ILO. Totally outstanding eh? Then, bu Dana di kelas Engineering Drawing. Sabar dan telaten, tapi materinya itu yang bikin stress. Gambar-gambar ga jelas, bikin kepala tambah pusing sumpah! Trus ada bu Maria. My favourite lecturer. I don't know how to describe her. But she's truly deeply AWESOME!! She's lecturing in UNSW. She cares and discipline lecturer. So inspiring i think. I love you bu Maria :*

Minggu kedua: Uhh...I don't know how to describe my second-college-week. Tugas yang harus dikumpul banyak banget. Beneran!! Banyaak banget. Mulai tugas gambar teknik yang suruh bikin makalah minimal 1000 kata dalam bahasa inggris (Salah siapa masuk kelas internasional?!) trus bikin summary buat materi information gathering, habis itu tugas PTSI (Pengantar Teknik dan Sistem Industri) buat ngerjain study guide yang sak gunung..and unfortunately, laptopku error!! Huh!! Bener-bener udah jatuh ketimpa tangga. Tapi, besoknya...TARAAA..tiba-tiba laptopku sembuh :) senengnyaaa... tugas bisa kelar ontime walaupun harus tidur sampe jam setengah 3 pagi dan bangun jam 5 pagi dan berakibat demam, radang tenggorokan sampe suara habis, gapapalah. perjuangan.

Berakit-rakit ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian.
Bersakit-sakit dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian.


15 September 2011

Just saying,,

Semoga rasa lelah ini bisa menjadikan aku lebih tough dalam menjalani hari-hari di sini .

13 September 2011

If I never knew you

Do you still remember 27thJune2010 ? It's the first time I saw you in our college masjid. I never thought that you'll be beside me. Yaa...It could be impossible, right? But that's happening. You said that you want to be 'abang' for me. You'll be my abang..always.. I hope that you're truly a missing part of me .

If I never knew you
If I never felt this love
I would have no inkling of
How precious life can be

And if I never held you
I would never have a clue
How at last I'd find in you
The missing part of me

In this world so full of fear
Full of rage and lies
I can see the truth so clear
In your eyes
So dry your eyes

And I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you

I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow we made the whole world bright

I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong
All they'd leave us where these whispers in the night
But still my heart is singing
We were right

If I never knew you (There's no moment I regret)
If I never knew this love (Since the moment that we met)
I would have no inkling of (If our time has gone too fast)
How precious life can be (I've lived at last...)

And I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Empty as the sky

Never knowing why

Lost forever
If I never knew you

* If I Never Knew You - John Secada & Shanice

12 September 2011

Ibu'..


I miss your fragrant
I miss your hugs
I miss your hot chocolate milk
I miss your smile
I miss your cares
I miss your soft kiss
I miss your voice
I miss a single touch of you
I miss you
Ibu'...

11 September 2011

Saya..

Saya lelah mengeluh.
Saya lelah menangis.
Tetapi saya lelah berpura-pura kuat.
Tetapi saya tahu saya lebih dari yang saya bayangkan.
Saya tahu itu.
Itu jelas.
Karena saya punya tekad.
Tetapi kenapa saya masih saja tetap mengeluh..

10 September 2011

metamorfosis

dulu, beberapa ribu detik yang lalu, aku masih bermain dengan mereka.
semua begitu sempurna. sepertinya hidup ini tak ada masalah.
aku masih bisa tersenyum, tertawa lepas, tanpa ada beban yang berarti.
itu dulu. duluu sekali. saat channel tv masih sedikit. saat masih ada kelereng dan petak umpet.
saat belum ada i-pad, bahkan telepon genggam.
sekarang, saat ini, dan nanti, dunia berubah. menjadi tua. begitu juga diriku.
yang dulu hanya tahu film kartun, sekarang sudah lebih dari itu.
kupu-kupu bermetamorfosis, aku pun begitu.
kupu-kupu butuh proses dalam metamorfosisnya, aku pun butuh proses menjadi dewasa.

7 September 2011

6 September 2011

Quote

Fortunately analysis is not the only way to resolve inner conflicts. Life itself still remains a very effective therapist. - Karen Horney

BREAKDOWN

It can be called 'daily shock' probably. There's almost no 'me time'.
I need a second to take a breath please. I need a quality time for me.
I will make it usual as soon as I can. But I need time to adapt.
I need friend to talk. There are a lot of things I would like to share with you.
I have been learning about life now, about friendship, about relationship with you and others.
I need some time alone. Indeed.

Not so different, but little..

This is one of my expectations being a college student in industrial engineering department. I still remember how I studied hard to get it. Even I was getting so sick or whatever. I couldn't stop expecting being student here. Now I'm here. I meet a lot of friend with a lot of fun :)
Yeah, I can't lie to myself that there's a gap between us. It's just my feels. The 'It' one is always make a group. Yeah, I know we're not equal with you but please we're in one department here, we're a family.


Yeah, you have your reasons probably. Why you just make a friend with that person. Why don't you join with others. Why are you so arrogant (so sorry). Why don't you try to 'say Hi' with others. Why you make this gap with others. We're same with you. We eat rice everyday. We live in one country. We need oxygen.

Haha...Yeah, you have your reasons. Maybe it's just my feels. Sorry, I just want to tell you my sweetest friends. Why? Because I care about that. I do love you all. I wanna make us become a big family indeed.

5 September 2011

It's first..

Huh~ It's a little difficult writing in English. I haven't written for so long. My hand-writing is going so bad :( My grammar isn't arranging well. DUMB!! Help! Help!
Yep...it's my first day as a college student. Wait...as a freshman exactly. Literally, I just get KWN in Monday at 7-8.40 . hohoo..
Feel so awkward. I go to class without uniform. Yeah, it's a damn cool rite?

When I was in Senior High School, the only one I want to do is being student college. They're look so awesome without their own fashion style. They're all confident with their identity and cherish each other.

Kuliah memang beda dari SMA. Kita disini dituntut buat mandiri. Bisa ngurus segala macemnya sendiri. Ayah, ibu' nggak pernah ngantar pindah ke ITS. Dan aku juga nggak pernah minta dianter. Kalau berangkat sendiri kan kesannya lebih tough. hehheee...

Oke..byebye bloggie. It's too late, time to close my eyes :D
Nite, nicedream

Idul Fitri

Alhamdulillah. Akhirnya setelah sebulan puasa, nahan laper, nahan nafsu, nahan emosi, umat Islam di seluruh dunia bisa bertemu Idul Fitri. Idul Fitri kali ini rasanya manis untukku. Sekeluarga bisa ngumpul semua, bisa silaturahmi ke rumah saudara-saudara, bisa makan lodho (semacam opor ayam) masakannya mbah putri, masih dapet THR walaupun udah jadi mahasiswa. Hahahaaa :D

Flashback ke lebaran tahun lalu. Waktu itu suasana sendu banget. Waktu aku sungkem ke ayah, ibu', mbahkung, mbah putri, tante, om, aku nggak kuat nahan nangis. Padahal aku nggak pernah secengeng itu. Saat itu ayah baru sebulan pulang dari Jakarta, setelah menyelesaikan operasi jantung dan berbagai macam treatment di RS Jantung Harapan Kita, pakdhe yang tiba-tiba terkena stroke dan harus dirawat di RSU Dr.Soetomo Surabaya, dan aku yang seminggu sebelum hari raya dapat 'rejeki' infeksi usus. Ya, itulah nikmat dari Allah. Nikmat sakit, nikmat musibah, nikmat hidup.

Ibu' selalu bilang "Kalo tau enaknya terus ya ndak nikmat jadinya. Coba mbak tiap hari tidur pake AC terus, pasti bosen kan, ndak bisa ngrasain nikmatnya AC kan? Coba tiap hari makannya pake ikan terus, bosen kan? Nah...gimana caranya bisa ngrasain nikmat? Caranya dengan kita pernah ngrasain ndak nikmat. Malem-malem tidur di kamar asrama, digigitin nyamuk, kepanasan. Akhirnya pas pulang ke rumah bisa ngrasain enaknya tidur di kasur rumah. Ya gitu itu sayang, Allah itu adil. Semua yang ada di dunia ini ada pasangannya. Supaya kita bisa bersyukur." Ya, ibu benar. Allah Maha Adil. Pasti ada hikmah dibalik sakitnya ayah, musibah yang kami terima. Inna ma'al usri yusro. Sesungguhnya dibalik kesulitan pasti ada kemudahan.

Alhamdulillah ... Telah Engkau pertemukan diriku dengan Ramadhan dan Idul Fitri tahun ini. Semoga Engkau masih mempertemukan diriku dengan Ramadhan dan Idul Fitri yang akan datang :)

Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri
Minal Aidin Wal Faidzin
Mohon Maaf Lahir Batin



8 Agustus 2011

So jazzy so adorable

Hemm..it’s cause 5cm novel . One of the characters of that novel, Genta, he likes Frank Sinatra and I was eager who Frank Sinatra is. And tarararara….He’s a jazz singer. Fly Me to The Moon is one of his song. Lovelovelove so much. I love this genre. So jazzy so classy uhhh :*

Jazz is one of the kind music genres. I’m charmed with Frank and Phil Collins. They’re awesome :kiss :kiss

Francis Albert "Frank" Sinatra was an American singer and actor. Beginning his musical career in the swing era with Harry James and Tommy Dorsey, Sinatra became an unprecedentedly successful solo artist in the early to mid-1940s, being the idol of the "bobby soxers". His professional career had stalled by the 1950s, but it was reborn in 1954 after he won the Academy Award for Best Supporting Actor for his performance in From Here to Eternity.

He signed with Capitol Records and released several critically lauded albums (such as In the Wee Small Hours, Songs for Swingin' Lovers,Come Fly with Me, Only the Lonely and Nice 'n' Easy). Sinatra left Capitol to found his own record label, Reprise Records (finding success with albums such as Ring-A-Ding-Ding, Sinatra at the Sands and Francis Albert Sinatra & Antonio Carlos Jobim), toured internationally, was a founding member of the Rat Pack and fraternized with celebrities and statesmen, including John F. Kennedy. Sinatra turned 50 in 1965, recorded the retrospective September of My Years, starred in the Emmy-winning television special Frank Sinatra: A Man and His Music, and scored hits with "Strangers in the Night" and "My Way". (taken from wikipedia : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Frank_Sinatra)


Anyone likes jazz too? Who? Raise your hand! ^^



.justwannasayingmom.

Actually I didn’t know what I gotta write here ^^” but I see some teens like me. Being teenager. I love be teen but I hate it. Some people think that teens are still like kids. Somehow we wanna be recognized here. Wannabe exist wherever we stand on.

You know mom and dad in every place in the world, we need you as our guardian angel J not our enemy L .Talking like we’re friend. We need you to understand our phase, mom.

But my mom is my friend. Sometimes we talk each other like a best-friend. but sometimes she can be my sweetie mom. We talk about school, top-chart song, politic, teenage life n others. but mom always be mom n kids always be kids :)

9 Juli 2011

.ballon.

hahaaa....literally,it's just simply posting.

B A L L O O N

that's one of my fav stuff besides lollipop and ice-cream.
i still remember when i was child, ibu' always bought me balloon when she came back from working.

B A L L O O N

describes a thousand feels. look at the picture...

Color image by sassylis on Photobucket

.yeay, industrial engineering ITS.

Alhamdulillaaaaah *again and again*

Thanks Allah...one million and more thanks to you for this unbelievable news. Well, actually i was really really happy when abang told me that i was accepted in industrial engineering ITS via SNMPTN. Ohhh.....thanks Allah, thanks ibu and ayah, my naughty sister, my families, abang, my friends, teachers i can't mention you one by one. really thanks to all of you who always support me and pray for me. Yap!! I've to be more diligent, discipline, fighting!!

.i'm not SHS girl.

Alhamdulillah :)
akhirnya bulan juni kemaren aku sudah resmi jadi alumni MAN 3 Malang . and I'm not senior high school girl anymore . tapi sedih juga , soalnya aku harus pisah sama temen-temenku yang udah kayak keluargaku sendiri :(

sediih banget rasanya pas salaman sama guru-guru , rasanya aku belum ngasih apa-apa ke mereka. dear my teachers, i love you all :*

graduation party has ended , but our friendship will be longlast . makasiih ya temen-temen , siapapun yang aku kenal selama di skolah . aku sayang kalian , kalian sudah memberikan cerita di hidupku .

26 Mei 2011

UCL Final

Which is your favorite one?




OR







.hijab nge-hip.





ehem, drop some comment. emang siih, jilbab kayak begini sekarang lagi nge-hip. keren juga kok. tapi ribet banget makenya kalo ga kebiasaan *kayak aku* .
anyway, boljug tuh shoes-nya. mau-mau aja kalo dikasi :p
ngomong-ngomong, gambar yang ketiga itu. si mbaknya keliatan jadi pendek, gara-gara kegedean blazer mungkin ya.
i'd rather the last pict. kesannya chick banget :))

.quotequote.

"May your dreams take you.. to the corner of your smiles, to the highest of your hopes, to the windows of your opportunities, and to the most special places your heart has ever known.." - Carson Wrenn


Stay focused on your goal
and remember ...
each small step will bring you a little closer

24 Mei 2011

Wannabe :)

Well, i don't know how to start this story.
I'm not a kind of nerd person or someone who always spend his/her time to read a lot of books. I'm not smart enough. I just a person who have high curiousity. I wanna know everything surrounded. What happened with this or that? What will be happened if this thing's combined with this one?
And that's why I have high courageous to choose engineering as my college program.

Literally, I'm not clever enough in Math or Physic. Nope. Just an ordinary student. Nevertheless, I love Science. Damn loving!! Science is so sexy i think. I like making experiments in laboratory not just doing a task or homework.

I decided to choose Industrial Engineering and Engineering Physics. Hahaaa....Do you think its nonsense? And I'll prove that its makes sense. Really, I'll be struggling to get it. I really wannabe ENGINEER!! That's my dream since I was a 6- year-old kid. When others want to be doctor, nurse, midwife etc. I shout loudly.."YES, I WANNABE ENGINEER"


.Wish you were here - Avril.

Literally, I'm not big fans of Avril. But I like her song. Its easy listening , especially this one..

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all

Theres a girl who gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walk through it

And I remember all those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am don't have to try hard
We always say, Say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Oh, Oh,

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Let go, Let go...

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

Whoa... this song is really represent myself. I know that we're separated but not with our heart *gombal mode : ON

.SNMPTN.


Yapp...This is the real battle. Merinding rasanya kalo denger kata 'SNMPTN'. Gilaa ..saingannya itu lho se-Indonesia Raya. Bismillah...SEMANGAT!!!

After spending long time to decide the program.. Taraaaaaa . ...


Bismillah...saya yakin dengan pilihan saya. Saya berusaha untuk mendapatkannya. Setelah itu, biarlah Dia yang memutuskan. Pada akhirnya nanti, pilihan-Nya lah yang terbaik untuk saya :)


21 Mei 2011

.sweet weekend.

21st May 2011.

Pagi-pagi jam 7 semangat '45 buat tryout di GO. Semangat banget ngerjain soal-soalnya. Mau tau kenapa? Karena biar cepet selesei, keburu si abang dateng dari Surabaya. Yipiiie.... Finally, I'll meet him. Setelah 2 bulan ga ketemu abang jelek, akhirnya weekend kali ini bakalan bareng abang. Akhirnya, habis ngerjain tryout langsung capcus ke MOG. Karena nungguin abang lama banget datengnya *naek kereta siih*, akhirnya aku muter-muter dulu keliling MOG.

Trus, ada telfon dari abang ''adek, ketemu di KFC ya..eh di Hokben aja". Langsung aku ke arah Hokben. Pas sampe depan Hokben si abang ga ada, yang ada malah ibu-ibu bawa trolley belanjaan. "Lah, yaopo seh abang iki? Katanya ketemu di Hokben". Celingak-celinguk di Hokben dan yang dicari ga ada wujudnya. Abis itu dari kejauhan, aku ngliat cowok make jaket item tulisan 'ITALY' di belakang sama bawa tas ransel di pundak. "Olala...itu tu abang!" Akhirnya aku buntutin dia dari belakang, trus pas deket AW aku kagetin dia.

Whoaaa...abang kok tambah ganteng siih >.< *tapi aku kemaren ga bilang gitu ke dia,ntar dianya ge-er* . Aduuh, aku dagdigdug pas mau salim tangannya ^^" .
Kangennya aku sama orang satu ini, pingin aku cubitin sampe kapok.wakakakk.

Habis itu aku nemenin dia sarapan di Hokben. Dari Hokben kita ke Mushollanya MOG buat shalat dhuhur, trus ke Tisera, ngobrol macem-macem di sana. Mulai dari SNMPTN dan blablabla...hufft~

Habis dari Tisera kita daftar online SNMPTN di warnet. Trus bikin planning ini itu. Beuhh...si abang gayanya kayak punya EO. Sok konseptor =P
tapi emang abang keren kok, ya iyalah abangku :))

Selesei dari warnet kita makan di KFC. Udah ga kuat ini perutku bunyi keroncongan minta makan. Di KFC kita makan sambil nglanjutin ngobrol Jam tanganku udah nunjukin pukul 16.00 . Huaaaa . .bentar lagi abang pulang ke Surabaya T.T ga boleh pulaaaaang. Tapi dia di sana banyak tugas *gaya yang jadi asdos sekarang.huh!*

Habis dari KFC ke Musholla buat shalat ashar trus abang pulang ke Surabaya. Hmmh.. thanks brother for this greatful weekend. Makasih juga buat T-Shirt Milannya yang kereeeeen sekali karena aku yang make :D sama sarungnya juga. Makasih ya abaaaang :))

Doain adek buat SNMPTN. Doain yang terbaik :)

Thanks my dearest abang

.potrait of me.



*narsisnya aku ya :)

10 Mei 2011

3 Mei 2011

SHS is going to be ended :)

Nggak kerasa kalo udah di akhir masa-masa SMA. Masa yang fuul of love, full of story *jadi inget milkstory-ku*, full of everything which i've never imagined before. Rasanya kalo mau diceritain semua di sini ga bakal cukup deh. Mulai dari jadi siswa baru. Ikutan MOS, Summer Camp di Coban Rondo, ikutan Paskibra, dgojlok senior PASMANTIG sebulan, pengibaran, trus daftar jadi squad OSIS, ikut LDKMS, panitia Fullcream *Pensi di MAN 3* etc.

Aku ga pernah nyangka SMA jauh dari ayah ibu'. Pengalaman pertama jauh dari orang tua yang membuatku sadar bahwa we need them indeed. Tanpa orang tua, kita bukan apa-apa. Orang tua yang tiap hari ngngetin kita, ngomelin kita karena mereka sangat menyayangi kita. Dan mulai SMA ini aku harus jauh dari mereka untuk belajar di sini. Di sekolah kehidupanku yang baru. Babak baru dimulai. Honestly, It's too hard for me. Awal masuk asrama sekolah aku ga begitu sedih, tapi saat melihat ibu' ninggalin aku buat pulang ke rumah, aku nggak tahan buat nggak nangis. Aku dulu masih suka ngumpet-ngumpet nangis di kamar mandi biar ga ketauan temen satu kamar. Tapi itu ga berlansung lama, karena di sini aku punya keluarga baru yang sayang aku. Thanks to Al-Baniya dan Hims :)

Kelas X sampai kelas XI aku nyoba buat join macem-macem ekskul dan organisasi. Mulai dari paskibra, OSIS, broadcast, OSIA..blablabla.
Ngrasain jadi panitia ini itu. Dimarah-marahin senior, susah bagi waktu antara sekolah, organisasi, kegiatan asrama yang full time :(
tapi itu yang membuatku mengerti pentingnya time-managing.

Aku adalah tipe seseorang yang nggak mau invisible. Yang selalu meneriakkan "Hey, this is me!". Ini aku, aku ada di sini. Yang selalu berusaha menunjukkan keeksistensian diriku. Aku nggak mau jadi 'ordinary'. I wanna be the 'it' one. Its not means kalo aku seorang yang arogan. NOPE! I'm flexible. Aku selalu berusaha untuk bisa nyambung dengan siapapun di sekitarku.

There's so much story which i cannot mention it one by one. I just want to share to others that live is how to be survivor wherever you are, whatever the condition is. Bagaimana kita bisa bertahan dimanapun kita berada dan bagaimanapun kondisi yang hadapi. Dan dimanapun itu kisa bisa memberikan manfaat kepada orang-orang di sekitar kita.

Aku merasakan jatuh bangun di masa ini. Di saat aku harus menghadapi banyak masalah, cobaan, aku ditantang untuk terus maju atau aku tetap berdiri dengan diam. I've to move forward right? YAP!!! Aku nggak mau kalah dengan keadaan. Nggak. Aku bukan tipe cewek yang sekali jatuh lalu menangisi masa lalu dan menyesal. I've to be tough!

Dan di masa inilah aku belajar bagaimana aku harus berfikir dewasa. Menyikapi suatu masalah dengan tidak hanya melihat dari satu sudut tetapi dari sudut lain.

Thanks to my Biggest Boss Allah yang hingga saat ini masih memberiku ruang untuk bermimpi dan menangkapnya. Rasulullah sang panutan hidupku :)
Terima kasih untuk orang-orang yang selalu menjadi supporter terbaikku. Ayah, ibu', adekku. You're incredible awesome impressive. We're rocking family!!! ^^
Dia.seseorang di sana yang selalu mendengar keluh kesahku. You give me your shoulder to cry on :')
Sahabat-sahabatku.terima kasih untuk semua cerita indahnya.I love you guys :*
Bu Yayuk...my best teacher ever.

Siapapun yang menjadi inspirasiku, terima kasih.

Senior High School is going to be ended. But my dream is started :)

27 April 2011

Happy 51-year-old Ayah

Ayah,
Bagaimana hari-harimu? Ayah sehat kan? Masih sering jogging dan rajin treatment tiap pagi kan? Hayo...Ayah ga boleh males lho. Nanti nabila cubit pipinya Ayah kalo Ayah males :)
Ooppss. . tanggal 13 April Ayah tambah 1 tahun lagi ya? Whoaa..You're going to be 51-year-old daddy. But, you're never looked oldies Ayah. You still look like 30-year-old man.Hohooo....

Ayah, saying 'thank you' is not enough for showing your deepest love to me. Never enough. You give me your warm hug, your soft kiss, sweet lullaby since I was a little baby until this day. Being your kids is the biggest gift in my life. Memiliki seorang ayah yang seperti Ayah adalah hadiah terindah dalam hidupku. Sungguh aku bersyukur :)

Ayah, maafkan nabila kalo selama ini sering membuat Ayah marah. Maafkan nabila kalo selalu membuat Ayah jengkel. Maafkan nabila kalo sering membuat ayah cemas. Nabila sayang Ayah. Selalu, Yah. Maafkan nabila karena di hari ulang tahun Ayah, nabila tidak ada di samping Ayah. Tapi Ayah selalu ada di hatinya nabila. Yang terpenting adalah doa nabila untuk Ayah. Doa yang tak pernah putus nabila panjatkan kepada-Nya agar Dia memberikan yang terbaik untuk Ayah.

Ayah, nabila belum bisa ngasih apa-apa. Semoga hasil UN dan SNMPTN Undangan nanti menjadi kado terindah yang bisa nabila berikan untuk Ayah.

Ayah masih ingat nggak waktu ngantar nabila les SEMPOA naik Vespa putih kesayangan Ayah? Trus waktu ngantar nabila les EF juga. Nabila suka waktu Ayah ngantar nabila, soalnya nabila bisa meluk Ayah erat-erat.

Terima kasih Ayah, yang selama ini telah mengajarkan kami bagaimana harus berbagi dan saling menyayangi

"Thank you for shaping my life. Thank you for teaching me all you can. You are no ordinary man. You make me everything I am. Thank you for taking the time. Thank you for showing me the way, and thank you for being there when I need you. Thank you for every single day.." - Jon Baker

31 Januari 2011

.thanks for being my special.

Hahaaa.... Ga nyangka sama sekali. Ga nyangka aku bisa jadi 'seseorangmu'. * Never suppose that I'm ur someone now :) *
Yaa..hampir saja aku move on buat nglupain kamu. I just decided to move on and forget u. I was exhausted catching u. I was trauma with my last story with other guys. And I didn't to repeat my story.
But...suddenly u came again with different behave. U've treated me special literally. Hmmm...actually i still doubt u before, but not again. I trust u. Whatever about everyone else saying.